考试画上一个句点

在2013年12月6日，我考试的生涯终于画上了一个句点。在前一天晚上，我就开始担心成绩到底会不会及格，甚至七早八早就起身check成绩，可是天就是不要我那么的顺利，考试考了三年，这一次竟然是我最难check成绩的一次，因为server down。从早上7点多一直等到中午1点多，都还是check不到的感觉，一点都不好受，那样等待和害怕的心情，除了让人忐忑不安，心跳加快，甚至坐立不安

第一次如此的不安，我决定驾车回公司就是为了一个password，看到了成绩，终于松了一口气，我及格了，我真的好开心。我成功考完了CPA，虽然路途中我fail了一科，可是最终我还是完成了这一个旅程碑。考试虽然说有的放假，可是一点都不好受，考试的压力，尤其是自从我fail了一科过后，我更加的害怕，因为我再也感觉不了它的简单，只好努力而已。

三年的日子，一点都不好过，加上工作忙碌，工作加考试的压力，除了偶尔的哭泣，日子还是需要过，书怎么难读也好，哭过了舒解了压力后，还是一样要读。再难熬的日子也熬过了，我暂时不需要考试了，不需要再面对考试的压力，出成绩的压力。

考试结束了，不用考试的日子，真的要好好多读书增值自己的知识，要好好计划一下未来的日子到底要怎么过才好。考完了试，人生突然间好像没有了目标，不晓得自己的方向到底是在何处，感觉如果无所事事就好像在浪费生命，那么生活到底是有什么意义呢？也或许人生只要能够开开心心的生活，其他的东西都不重要了。开不开心日子还是一样的要过，为何就不能选择开开心心的过日子呢？解决不了的事情，再烦也解决不了，倒不如开开心心的想解决方案？笑着面对人生其实是人生最大的考验，因为每一个人都不会不同的情绪。开开心心笑一个吧! :)

倒数25天

压力，还有25天，我真的很希望我能挨过去。天天挨夜，我也不知道我能不能挨，但也不知道为什么我还能笑出来，回到家却很累，什么都不想做，真的想好好休息一下，我好像已经忙了两个多月，这样的生活，虽然说能上的很快，可是有时候也很累。

有时候在想，能平平淡淡的生活，那该多好，可是当初选择了这行，我又能怎么样呢？只能继续挨下去，要开开心心的活下去。

再多一个多月就在一起一年咯，虽然有时候你的脾气不好，可是你脾气好的时候，我还是挺开心的。希望我们能够开开心心的一起走下去。

2013第一件惊天动地-被打抢

我从来没有想过我也会有殃及池鱼的一天，在家门口也能被打抢的。2013年1月10日，我放工回家，我到家的时候还只是8点30分晚上，下车拿东西，竟然在要准备关车门的那一瞬间，我感觉有人在我背后要抢我的手提袋，我一转身想看一看发生什么事情，一心还想抢回过来，可惜自己连一点点的挣扎能力也没有就跌倒了，手上的车匙连同手提袋和早上带早餐的Tupperware就被抢走了。短短的几秒钟，在我意识中还没有来得及反应过来的同时，只看到一个黑色的人影跑了，骑摩托走了。我却连他的样子和车牌都没有看见，只有一句什么没有了。

当时我还在想，我车钥匙没了怎么办？手上剩下的只是钥匙圈，有用吗？电话没了，钱包没了，我竟然一个电话号码都不知道，只有彷徨中的仿徨。无奈的根本不知道自己需要做些什么，庆幸的我背着的laptop beg没有一起被抢走，不然我真的一无所有了。镇定下来之后，才发现远处竟然掉下了我的tupperware纸袋和车钥匙，还算不是血本无归。什么都忘记的我，竟然只想到开电脑update我facebook的status，唉。当然同时间是找所有银行的电话号码打电话删除我所有的card和电讯公司剪断我的电话服务，以避免更惨重的损失。最后才发现，我手脚竟然擦伤了。

怎么这个世界那么的危险和恐怖？抢钱就好了，为何连我的GPS也一起抢？没有了GPS我到底还会不会路？吃了晚餐后就出去报警，当我写下我倒底不见什么东西的时候，我竟然写了二十多样，就连我的水壶和在台湾买回来的雨伞也没了。警察问我要不要去验伤，可惜那时候已经是11点多晚上了，验完伤还要去警局，第二天男友还要去工作，所以还是算了，在警察局警察帮我拍照和受伤的地方。我就这样度过了一个晚上。我打电话去请假的时候，我的经理竟然撞车也在警察局，都还没有来一个黑色的星期五，却来了一个黑色的星期四，龙年我到底是不是因为犯太岁，也没有去拜太岁而遇上了这样的事情？如果我早一点回家，我可能就不会发生这种事情了。人生20多年，还是真的第一次被打抢，可怜的我要赶工还遇到这样的事情要请假。

如果说庆幸的话，我至少没有把s3弄不见，因为进厂了，身份证也没不见，因为忘了带出去，车钥匙找回来，人没有很受伤，最多也是小小的心灵受创伤，整晚也不知道有没有睡着，也还好有你在身边。不过保守估计也损失了RM1000-1500，replace所有的card还需要给RM50per card，这个也算是啊Q精神吧。

Terrible accident

Am I really so bad luck? I wish I am not. However, all the bad things are happen around me. I broke up with my ex-boyfriend recently. I saw an accident in front of me. The car had turnover with the tires in the air. If I went straight, I had been bang the car and die. Luckily, I was turn left.

The life is short. We can die easily without knowing anything. Is it truth for the end of 2012? I was stun for few second when I saw the accident. Why the speed is slow and the accident still can happen? I really not understand it.

We have to be careful when we drive.

Gym

Apart from the free small gym room in condominium or school, celebrity fitness is my first gym room which I had went in. Today is my first day went to the gym. I was so tired when I was doing the exercise together with the instructors for 2 hours.

How long am I not going for exercise or training my muscles? I think I never train my muscles before since I am borne. When I did the exercise, I felt like I no energy at all to follow the instructors. However, I must make up my mind to work hard in these 5 weeks to lose my weight. Now, I am the fattest in my 23 years’ time. I must make sure I achieve my target. I really hope that I am not that weak which I unable to complete the simple exercise like today.

My hands and legs are pain. However, I must look forward for the taining. Good luck and gambatte for the mission impossible. I still believe that nothing is impossible.

意外

只是一瞬间的事情，我真的好害怕。我顿时间愣了，完全不知道自己能做些什么。看着手中的电话，电又没有，车又被撞到这样。在不到一秒钟的时间，整个人都冲向前面，感觉上是没有受伤，可是却撞到头。我哭了，除了彷徨，我根本不晓得我应该做些什么。只是不断的打电话，打到电话也没有电了，是不是人倒霉的时候，什么都不是那么的顺利呢？

事情发生到太突然了，有点接受不到，可是我却没有办法，不能接受也需要去接受。从来没有想过去打包一个晚餐就发生这样的事情，搞到全team的人都来看我，反而要工作的却没有的工作了。真的谢谢你们。我去报警，可是我却连我的车牌号码都说错了。

两个星期没有车，我到底怎么去工作呢？一个这样的问题，我真的很无奈。只能怪自己怎么那么的不小心，虽然我是大路，也需要提防旁边有车出来啊。虽然怎么说都不是我的错，可是却带来很多无必要的麻烦。一句话“惨”。

无奈

看到朋友的遭遇，除了难过伤心，精神上的支持，我也不知道该做些什么了。或许，我应该多一点关心身边的朋友。表面上的微笑，好像并不代表是真正的快乐，一种用来掩饰心中的不是，只是对工作上负责任，不把私事牵连到公事里面。可是我们真的能不把公事带回家吗？

身心能承受的压力是不是能够完全被泄放出来呢？寂寞无奈的时候是不是需要对自己所做的东西负责任呢？如果因为压力而忘了自我，受伤的是自己，那又何苦呢？可是我们是不是真的能够那么有理智性的处理所面对的东西呢？以泪洗脸只是消除短暂的痛苦，心情好一点后，还是需要面对残酷的现实。

掩饰是一种逃避，如果逃避能够忘了伤感，我宁愿逃避，那该多好。无奈的心情只能默默的支持你。庆幸的是自己没有遇见过。有了伤感，哭过就好了。

伪装的坚强，真的很累。如果累了，就做回自己吧。有着软弱的一面，也不算是什么坏事。如果什么事情都觉得自己能解决的话，那就错了。朋友的关心有时候也蛮好用的。朋友，加油吧！凡是没有过不去的事，只有选择停留的时光。

永远都支持你的朋友。

周杰伦跨时代演唱会

这是我第一次去看演唱会，整个场面真的很high。整个bukit jalil studium的人一起唱周杰伦的歌，场面是多么的壮观。高喊了和唱了2个多小时，手更是酸，因为举起手摇荧光棒摇了整个晚上。

dvd版本和现场演唱会的感觉真的很不一样。一个字，赞。真的是太棒了。给我的感觉，歌手换衣真的好快哦，不用几秒就好了。一个很值得看的演唱会，不会后悔用了RM330来看这一场演唱会。下一次如果要更加的high，应该要去rock zone，只是没有的坐，也看不到歌词。哈哈。

杰伦，你是最棒的，虽然开始的时候有点走音跟沙声。喜欢你现场改歌词，你的才艺，真的是一级棒。yeah。

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周杰伦超时代马来西亚巡回》次场演唱会

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曲目：龙战骑士/跨时代/蛇舞（与Lara合唱）/爱在西元前/说好的幸福呢/嘻哈小姐/威廉古堡/你不爱我（袁咏琳）/画沙（与袁咏琳合唱）/想你就写信（浪花兄弟）/你是我的OK绷（浪花兄弟）/稻香/阳光宅男/龙卷风/青花瓷/免费教学录影带/时光机/心事无人知+爸我回来了/雨下一整晚 /月光（与Gary合唱）/简单爱/超人不会飞/以父之名/开不了口

安哥：给我一首个的时间/珊瑚海（与Lara合唱）/我不再怕（Lara）/七里香/双节棍

Forgetful

Since when, I had become so forgetful? I had forgotten something that I need to be care of for my daily life. In my mind, I just remember my work. I have to remember what I suppose to do in the next day for my work. However, I forgot to wash my plate after I continue my work.

Last time, I just realized my pen drive was missing after few days. I forgot to take back my umbrella from my senior and it had passed two weeks until now. I even forgot where I put my calculator after I used it. It looks like super terrible. Why this can happen? Haiz.

Today, I just realize my IC was missing. I was very scare. In my memory, I had forgotten when the last time I saw it is. I became memory lost. I almost want to make a decision to make police report. I tried my best to recall when the last time was. After I think for few minutes, I think the last time was two weeks ago. It means I didn’t bring IC go out for 2 weeks and I had gone to so many differences places.

Is this because I had contributed all my memory towards my works? As my friend mentioned 200% workaholic. We had contributed our time which is equal to our physically and our memory which equal to our mentally. When we supposed to rest, but our mind still keep think about the work. When two auditors sit together, we started our conversation with work.

How many things that I had forgotten to do? I not even can answer. However, I must remind myself if cook half way, I must not continue my work. If not, the house burn already also not sure what had happened just now.

I must change, so that all this will not happen on me.

H1N1

When I heard the news of getting H1N1, I am super scare as we are in the same meeting room for few hours. Before I know the news, I think I am healthy. However, I feel I am not really feeling well after a while. The symptoms is just because I not enough sleep yesterday. I felt cool because the air conditioner quite low temperature. I was no mood to work that time, I just very scare.

The first thing in my mind is if we need to be quarantine, how we supposed to meet the dateline? If either one of us get H1N1, how many person will involve for this? We had contact so many people in a day since Monday. I can’t imagine why the first thing in my mind is about my work.

I just hope I will not fall in sick especially get H1N1. The news had spoiled my mood for a day. Haiz.

Last day of 2010 and first day of 2011

2010 had come to the end. I had done quite a lot of things on 31 December 2010. Our Prime Minister announced 31 December 2010 as a public holiday because our football team win the champion of the Suzuki Cup.

In the morning, I went back to the office to continue my work. Now, I start to realize why all my seniors like to go back office instead of work at home. I fail to start my works at home for quite many times although I am working most of the time. It has quite a lot disturbance in the house although there is no television or someone to talk to.

After I finished my works, I went to Jusco to buy some ingredient for cooking, so that I have something to eat at home for this few days before I go to outstation once again. I went for few rounds in the Jusco, but I unable to find the ingredients which I needed. It looked like Jusco did not sell the ingredient such as Unagi.

After two hours thought and walked inside the Jusco, I went back home. I went to swim since there were not much people inside the swimming pool that time. I like to swim but I do not know how to swim. I jumped into the swimming pool and tried my best to swim for an hour. It was so tired because I had nonstop activities during the day. I just relax my mind inside the swimming pool and forgot everything in the time being. After I bathed, I started to make my sushi. I learned it 5 years ago. I thought I want to make it for many years, but I fail to do it. Finally, I had time to try and error to make the first one. It looked not that nice, but it was lucky that the sushi still can eat. At least, I did not feel stomachache or vomit after eating it. I had taken a photo for my result.

I went to my friend’s house to wait her to bring me to countdown. This was my first time to go for New Year countdown. I did not like the situation which was super crowded or noisy. I like the peaceful environments. I reached my friend’s house around 10.30pm. However, we depart to Desa Park City around 11.20pm. When we get a parking around the area, the time was 11.40pm. The distance from our car to the Lake was quite far and we not really sure about the directions for the fireworks. I even ran with high heels due to the limited time before it came to another year. We found a strategic place to sit beside the lake. The scenery is very beautiful. When the fireworks started, I was no regret to accept the invitation from my friend to go for countdown. The fireworks were very beautiful and amazing. It was so romantics as the fireworks just beside the lake. It was worthy to scarify my rest time to go for the fireworks. I reached my home at 2.30am. I was so happy for the night.

The next day, it was the beginning of our year 2011. It looked like not a good signed because I almost overslept for my stock count. Luckily, I managed to wake up after I closed my alarm for 40 minutes. I was scare that I will late for the stock count. However, I managed to reach on time because there was no traffic jam.

After I finished my stock count, I called my friend. I was surprised that when my friend at Sg Wang that time. I went to find her and went for shopping together. I was very tired although some of my friend stated that they will not tire if they went to shopping. I was very happy for that because this was my first time went out together with my course mate in Kuala Lumpur. It came to the end of my first day of year 2011.

A weekend

Since I started my work until now, I had passed 7 weekends. This weekend can only consider is the first week that I enjoyed the most at kl. I had long time did not go to shopping and buy new cloths. In my memory, the very last time should be at least 10 to 11 months ago. I like to shop if my mood is good and not in a rush time. Or else, I am rather not to shop any.

I went to Times Square with another friend at Saturday to meet my friend who came back to Malaysia from Singapore. Unfortunately, we not manage to meet each other at the end due to the time constraint. This is not the first time that I want to meet someone around bukit bintang, but end up with nothing. It is because we busy shopping until we forgot each others. That day, we came together and separate in the shopping mall for different things. It is quite enjoy shopping alone.

On Sunday, I went to the Terry Fox run which organized by Cancer Research Association. It is a charity run at Taman Tasik Titiwangsa for around 3.5km. It is my first time went to an event for a run. Normally, I am not physically fit, but I want to train myself to become physically fit. I was lucky because I meet someone that I know in the run. If not, I think I had to run alone. For the run, it needed a lot of mentality power to support us to run to the end. However, I think that I am not air to run constantly. During the run, there were so many people over there. It is a good experience for me and my main purpose is going to exercise.

郁闷

有时候真的不是很能原谅我自己，为什么凡事都不能小心一点呢？这样的事情也不是第一次了，我到底什么时候才学会照顾好自己的东西呢？不是忘记这个，就是忘记那个。还是我是凡走过的地方都一定要留下痕迹？把东西留在那里，当作是一种纪念？或许这一次会比较好一点，至少我三天后就发现了，上一次好像是两个月后才发现我的shampoo没有带回来，唉。好像都是后知后觉的，什么时候才学会还没发生就知道了呢？

还是我是累到什么都忘记了，就连我什么时候是最后一次使用它，我也忘记了。那么的小细节都做不好，到底还能做些什么大事呢？责怪自己到底又有何用呢？难道还小吗？要成熟一点啊？我还算是一个专业人士，怎么能这样呢？或许只能怪自己那么的不小心，为了工作什么都能忘记了。整个月了，我除了工作之外，我好像也没有做过其他东西了。我好像也是属于一个工作狂，要在最短时间学会最多东西，就是有一定的付出代价了。

再伤心也是无补的，只能接受事实了，除非有奇迹出现，还是自己遗忘了在某个角落，但这一种机会是多么的渺茫。难道还小吗？哭而无泪，有点的想哭却哭不出来了。唉。笑着过日子吧！人会比较开心一点的。哈哈。。哈哈。。

Not enough sleep

For 3 weeks, I just sleep average for 5 to 6 hours every day including Saturday and Sunday since I started my work. It is fun but quite tired actually. We read a lot during the training and after our training. It seems like information overload to me although I had learned most of the things before this. I had to refresh my knowledge which I had gained one year ago.

I start to become suspicious that is my life just for working in the time being? I seem like nothing to do except thinking of my work although without overtime claim. However, I feel like time flied very fast since I started my first job. It passed for 3 weeks without my notice. In 3 weeks, a lot of things happened including whether I can take leave to my brother’s convocation or not. It had changed few time between can or cannot. At the end, I failed to go to the convocation because I am not in Malaysia during that time. The process is just like the changes from happy, sad, disappointed, and fantastic to excited.

I think it is worth because I have the chances to go overseas and go travel around. I am looking forward to my trip although I think I will totally not enough sleep for the week when I am outstation. I will try to enjoy myself because all my trips previously is less sleeping time, so that we can travel more places which we wanted it to be happened.

Traffic in KL

Before I drove to work every morning, I thought I scare for the cars. However, I now only realized that I am wrong because I more scare for the motorcycles. Every morning or the time when I went back home, there are a lot of motorcycles on the road. It is difficult to drive especially during traffic jam.

Besides, I am quite lazy to take LRT to work although the traffic is jam. It is because I need to walk a distance and need to pack inside the LRT. Furthermore, all my things are quite heavy actually. It may be the reasons for me to be stuck inside the traffic jam.

I hope my parking skill and driving skill will be improved after sometimes. However, I am sure with this intensive training. I can do it.

朋友加油

朋友，平时的我都以为自己很坚强，可是看完了你写的东西后，你却是我看过最坚强的那个了，我彻底的输了。我看了你的故事，我哭了。我在想，一个人怎么能够承担这一些事情呢？是我的话，我应该崩溃了。朋友本来就是有难同当，有福同享的。我知道你会看得见我写的东西，我们是绝对不会看不起你，因为我们都是好朋友。

在生活上，我最不想见的东西是离婚，更不想做的东西是分手，如果要离婚，为什么还要结婚呢？恋爱就是要找到适合自己的，如果恋爱是为了分手，我宁愿不要恋爱。因为分手的感觉是很痛很痛。离婚最伤的不是两人，而是小孩。那，又何必呢？

你却一个人承担了。想回去的时候，你还可以笑着面对我们，我真的太佩服你了，你怎么能做得到的呢？为什么就不让我们跟你分担这一切呢？就算是我们不能做些什么事情，至少你可以诉苦啊，不用一个人难过哭泣。我觉得我不是一个很会当别人的好朋友，为什么我会察觉不到你的不快乐呢？做朋友做到那么失败的我，还算是一个好朋友吗？4年的朋友，不管怎么样或是发生了什么事情，你还是我的好朋友，不会改变的那一些。请你记得，朋友是不会因为身世而变质的。

当事情演变成这样的情况的时候，不会慰问你的我也不知道要如何是好，只能叫你别那么伤心难过了。有什么事情，就找我们聊聊吧。能帮的，能分担的，一定是义不容辞的。别一个人承受了，就别把我坏的都学完啊，因为我也是其中一个，可是我却没你那么强了，因为我不觉得我承受不到这样的事实。你真的很坚强，有你这样的朋友，我很荣幸，只要你不嫌弃我就好了。哈哈。。。

朋友，加油吧！你知道吗？你是最棒的！

Accident

Since the year which I was 17 years old, I had driven the car. However, this was my second time which the car behind bang me. This time is much more terrible compared to last time. The sound is a bit loud and my car was not stopped that time due to traffic jam. It is because I know that to stop the car is quite dangerous. The feeling just like what had happened suddenly. By that time, I really not sure whether want to stop my car to have a look or continue to drive the car.

After thinking for few second, I decided to stop the car. The car owner behind also stopped together as well and comes down to say sorry to us because is his fault. I was so angry that time, but I just do not know how to scold him and accept his apologized because my car just got a little of scar. However, this really a sad case because I just get my car for one month plus.

It is really a bad luck for me.

Cancer

Why there are so many people will get cancer nowadays? According to the research, there is one person out of four people will get cancer in Malaysia. In the year 2020, there is one person out of three people will get cancer. In the future, there is one person out of two people will get cancer in Malaysia. It is a very terrible figure in our life.

Most of the cancer is due to our environmental. Since World War 2, 100,000 types of chemical are created due to the world economic downturn. However, there are 20,000 types of chemical which contents something which not good for our health and even will affect us to get cancer easily in the long term when we consume it together with our daily products without our knowledge. It is because the 20,000 types of chemical are cheap and have a good effect when we used it.

It is really a sad case when our family or relatives who get cancer. I am really scared for using all those products which do not prove by any scientist that the products are safety to use. It is the reason for me to change a brand to use safety products, which are chemical free. I scare to die and suffer from the cancer attack. Sometimes we not manage to change the result, but we can avoid it with our ability. It is really thanking god who recommended these daily necessity products to me. I hope I can tell everyone about the good news of the products which can save us and the world as well.

Wedding Dinner

This is my first time which my friend invited me to her wedding dinner. I was so happy for it and plan to go immediately. Unfortunately, it crashed with my events which I think I want to go. I can only wish her deeply from my heart.

She is my friend in primary school. I had lost contact with her after I move the house during my secondary school. We did not contact each other for 10 years. With the technology (Facebook), we find back each other. I am really appreciating for the invitation from my friend.

Hereafter onwards, I believe that I will have many friends to get married. It is reached the time if we want to get married earlier. For me, I think that it really very early because all of us still in the range age of 22 to 23. However, I should congratulate to my friend who found her true love in her life.

Here, I wish my friend to have a memorable wedding. I apologize due to my absentee.

选择

选择越多的时候，总是会让人无从选择，不知道该做出什么样的选择。而我呢？只有逃避，不要让自己有其他的选择，什么都不想，做出了选择就不要再犹豫了，也不要想那些会让自己后悔的事情。有再多的选择又有何用呢？也可能到头来也不知道哪一个才是最好的。

选择让人迷失方向，迷失了自己，人越大就需要做很多不同的选择，选择错了就要自己懂得怎么承担，怎么去面对错的选择。什么东西都需要自己的选择，可是或许我最讨厌的就是做选择，选择越多就真的不知道要怎么选，很有可能到最后什么都选不到，只有悲剧收场。

于其羡慕别人，不如先做好自己要做的东西。或许是因为我害怕，怕做错了决定，所以只有逃避让自己觉得这样的决定是最好的。没有错的开始，只有对的结束，所以怎么样的决定都是对的。是自欺欺人，还是自我安慰呢？这样的阿Q精神，凡是就是要往好的方面想啊，什么样的决定都是最好的决定，什么样的选择都是最好的选择。这样的想法才是最正确的哦。