Outstation for Stock count

When I received the stock count news, it had been 4 pm in the evening. It was quite rush as the stock count was in the next day morning in Pahang. The stock count place was somewhere near my hometown, but it needs 50 minutes for the travelling time to reach there from my hometown.

I felt a bit guilty that I went back home before I had finished my work. I reached home around 10.20pm to bath and take something before I departed back to my hometown. However, I reached my hometown around 1am and I was so tired for travelling as I didn’t plan to go back.

The weather is good which means the weather is super hot. We went to count the trees in the estate. We walked under the hot sun for few hours to count the trees without any shelter. I felt like I almost fainted under the hot sun or almost fall down many times as the landscape is very wet. Our shoes and our pants became very dirty. It just like we went to do some crude work under the hot sun. I had never done all this since my secondary school. It helped me to recall that how tough is the life.

Our plan to go for jogging on Saturday had gone since we went for the stock count. However, the count is tougher than jogging. Our sweat was a lot. After I went back home at Raub, I bath and sleep. Both of us were very tired. We rushed back to KL at night and it was traffic jam due to the road block. We reached KL around 12.30am. It was a 24 hours outstation.

On Sunday, we went for jogging in 7.30am. We had to plan sometimes for exercise as most of the time we just sit and do our work. We went for breakfast after that. After the breakfast, we went to 1u to buy a tennis racket because we are so excited to play in the future although I did not know how to play tennis. It was my first time went to 1u at 10am. It was very early. Then, we went to pasar pagi to buy vegetable, so that I can go back home and cook.

I went back to office to dispatch the report in the evening. I looked like quite tired although the weekend was quite fun.

一半

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女孩反反复复的听了这首歌一整天，总觉得歌里面所形容的所描述的，跟女孩的情景十分相似。女孩总是在想一个人的世界，到底是自由还是孤单的呢？一起看电影的伴，女孩多久没有去看电影了？早午晚餐，有多少次是自己一个人？唱k的伴，喜欢唱k的女孩已经忘了有多久没有去唱k了。一起去旅行的伴，女孩有少次是计划失败的？计划让人疲累，让人失望，女孩已经不想再去承受失望的结果了。女孩的生活就只差那个人就美满。

快乐剩一人分享，快乐就只剩一半，独自的快乐总是孤单的。有多少回女孩是为自己煮了一碗热热的汤，奖励自己生活多么的劳心劳累，可是心怎么都不够暖。一张睡床，不论是多舒服都还是觉得太宽。

没人分享的生活，幸福就只剩下一半。女孩很努力的把生活填得满满的，忙碌能让一个人忘了自我喘不过气，疲惫却能把思绪终止。可是就算女孩把日子都填满，节日的时候却提醒女孩的孤单。女孩不想有任何的想法，因为就算有想法，也是无可奈何的，又有何用呢？女孩只能写部落格来遮暖，部落格是女孩调解情绪的地方，偶尔的几个留言却也安慰不了女孩心里面的遗憾。

一个人的生活虽然没有负担，但女孩却深深的了解到原来没有负担也是一种负担，自由多得让人心慌。一个人疯狂的逛街，一个人埋头苦干的工作，一个人在房里大声的展现歌喉整理情绪，一个人去运动，一个人对着两部电脑胡思乱想，一个人虽然累了却还在追连续剧。这样自由自在的生活，到底是不是值得羡慕呢？你是否要与女孩交换？女孩平日的欢笑声，没有人会知道女孩是多孤单，所以也别来提醒女孩到底女孩有多孤单。

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喝酒的伴 一起看电影的伴

早午晚餐的那个伴

朋友不能留得太晚 明天要上班

唱k 的伴 一起旅行的伴

听懂我笑话的伴

我的生活 只差那个人就美满

快乐剩一个分享 快乐就只剩一半

喝一碗汤 心怎么都不够暖

这张被单 这张睡床

再舒服 都觉得太宽

没人分享 幸福就只剩一半

就算把日子都填满 节日却提醒我孤单

没有想法 有想法又怎样

只能写部落格遮暖

几个留言安慰不了 心里的遗憾

没有负担 原来也是种负担

自由多得让人心慌

你羡慕我？ 那要不要跟我交换？

没人分享 幸福就只剩一半

就算把日子都填满

没人知道 我多孤单

H1N1

When I heard the news of getting H1N1, I am super scare as we are in the same meeting room for few hours. Before I know the news, I think I am healthy. However, I feel I am not really feeling well after a while. The symptoms is just because I not enough sleep yesterday. I felt cool because the air conditioner quite low temperature. I was no mood to work that time, I just very scare.

The first thing in my mind is if we need to be quarantine, how we supposed to meet the dateline? If either one of us get H1N1, how many person will involve for this? We had contact so many people in a day since Monday. I can’t imagine why the first thing in my mind is about my work.

I just hope I will not fall in sick especially get H1N1. The news had spoiled my mood for a day. Haiz.

Peak period

I had gone through the peak period for one week plus. It is tired and now I feel the stress when the dateline is coming. This is call audit life where we had to scarify our sleeping time to complete the job. It looks so far so good although I had only 3 to 4 hours sleeping time last week. It is better this week, but the worst is still not coming yet. I know I sure will go through the path where we stay in the office until 5am or later.

How can I face this for another 6 months plus? I not really can imagine unless I had passed this period. We are unable to measure when we can finish our work, but the dateline is nearer and nearer. We will grow up and become stronger when we pass the peak period peacefully.

There is no doubt that we learned a lot of things throughout the work. Also, we make a lot of joke to make sure we still alive. We cannot deny the stress and workload, but we can only choose to become happy and work in a laugh environment. With the laugh, the working environment is much better.

It is really tiring. There is an uncountable time when I was fall asleep in front of my laptop. After a while, I wake up and continue working. Sometimes, I look like I really very free, instead it is not. Thanks for the laugh and the coach. I think I quite enjoy the work although it is really tiring as I almost work for 18 hours per day.

Last day of 2010 and first day of 2011

2010 had come to the end. I had done quite a lot of things on 31 December 2010. Our Prime Minister announced 31 December 2010 as a public holiday because our football team win the champion of the Suzuki Cup.

In the morning, I went back to the office to continue my work. Now, I start to realize why all my seniors like to go back office instead of work at home. I fail to start my works at home for quite many times although I am working most of the time. It has quite a lot disturbance in the house although there is no television or someone to talk to.

After I finished my works, I went to Jusco to buy some ingredient for cooking, so that I have something to eat at home for this few days before I go to outstation once again. I went for few rounds in the Jusco, but I unable to find the ingredients which I needed. It looked like Jusco did not sell the ingredient such as Unagi.

After two hours thought and walked inside the Jusco, I went back home. I went to swim since there were not much people inside the swimming pool that time. I like to swim but I do not know how to swim. I jumped into the swimming pool and tried my best to swim for an hour. It was so tired because I had nonstop activities during the day. I just relax my mind inside the swimming pool and forgot everything in the time being. After I bathed, I started to make my sushi. I learned it 5 years ago. I thought I want to make it for many years, but I fail to do it. Finally, I had time to try and error to make the first one. It looked not that nice, but it was lucky that the sushi still can eat. At least, I did not feel stomachache or vomit after eating it. I had taken a photo for my result.

I went to my friend’s house to wait her to bring me to countdown. This was my first time to go for New Year countdown. I did not like the situation which was super crowded or noisy. I like the peaceful environments. I reached my friend’s house around 10.30pm. However, we depart to Desa Park City around 11.20pm. When we get a parking around the area, the time was 11.40pm. The distance from our car to the Lake was quite far and we not really sure about the directions for the fireworks. I even ran with high heels due to the limited time before it came to another year. We found a strategic place to sit beside the lake. The scenery is very beautiful. When the fireworks started, I was no regret to accept the invitation from my friend to go for countdown. The fireworks were very beautiful and amazing. It was so romantics as the fireworks just beside the lake. It was worthy to scarify my rest time to go for the fireworks. I reached my home at 2.30am. I was so happy for the night.

The next day, it was the beginning of our year 2011. It looked like not a good signed because I almost overslept for my stock count. Luckily, I managed to wake up after I closed my alarm for 40 minutes. I was scare that I will late for the stock count. However, I managed to reach on time because there was no traffic jam.

After I finished my stock count, I called my friend. I was surprised that when my friend at Sg Wang that time. I went to find her and went for shopping together. I was very tired although some of my friend stated that they will not tire if they went to shopping. I was very happy for that because this was my first time went out together with my course mate in Kuala Lumpur. It came to the end of my first day of year 2011.

忆在二零一零

三年前（2007尾声）曾经写过的一篇回忆，看过那篇文章回想起的时候才知道原来发生过那么多的事情。时隔三年，也才发现我在年尾或年头不曾记录一年来的心情。2009年，刚从台湾回来。2008年，却是忙着准备考试的一年。2010年，应该就是忙工作，可是我还希望我有时间整理自己的心情。也发现自己还蛮喜欢看回自己每一次的原创，也许这就是比较自恋吧！哈哈。



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我

你我

曾经相遇

现在还好吗

一年前一年后

时间慢慢的飞逝

成长中的喜怒哀乐

无法避免深夜里的悲

可忙的借口却挂在嘴边

疲惫厌倦却还是笑口常开

开心欢乐是一生里面的宗旨

爱没有如果你不需要假设什么

泪水是在坚强中学习不让它滑落

学习成长只是人生必然经过的道路

只能深深的相信明天就是未来的到来

没有对不起也没有错对的世界中度过的

有一种落寞的温暖是否还一样存在呢

一些回忆是留不住但也带不走停留

跌跌撞撞只寻找最初梦想和天堂

快乐的开始不该是悲伤的结束

煎熬的生活还是一样要度过

是否能度过还是一个迷惑

挡风挡雨的你是否还在

还是伤感是一种形容

一年后是否还一样

二零一零结束了

只希望会更好

更加的完美

更加开心

只留下

美好

愿

Outstation

Someone told me that he not really like outstation because it is more tiring compared to normal work. Also, your feeling will totally not the same as you go to travel. However, I like to go outstation although it is tiring for the time being. It is because we can go different places for free although we have to work day and night. We can go somewhere that we will not go normally if we go travel. Besides, I had no money to go travel. Therefore, there is no reasons for me do not want to go outstation since I like to travel so much.

This time is my second assignment for outstation. First assignment for outstation, I went to Indonesia for one week. It was a great experience for me although it was super tired as I was fall asleep during working. For my second outstation, I went to Pahang for estate visit in Bera, Triang, Rentam, Mengkarak and Palong. We need to go there for 2 weeks. It should be a great expedition.

I had passed by so many estates in Pahang since young. I like the palm oil because the view is very beautiful along the road. However, I have no chances to go in before this. And now, I finally have chance to go to visit. I will look forward to the experience in this coming two weeks although this is not my first time have a near distance contact with palm oil or rubbers trees.
The only thing which I hope is I still manage to online in these two weeks.

KSP Night

Our KSP night had been organized in one world hotel. I never plan to go to this night, but I never regret to go to the night as well. The reasons why I feel like not really want to join are because I do not like to drink as most of the function is like this. When I reach the ball room, all the people are quite strange to me. Is this my problem?

I am very surprise when my friend called me that night to take photo. I never met her after our convocation. I tried to date her for few times but fail at the end. I was so happy when I met her outside the ball room. The friendship will never end although we did not meet for sometimes.

The programs were not special because only singing, fashion shows and lucky draws. I was not very lucky because I had long time never get any prize for lucky draws. I took quite a lot photos with different people that night. However, I was disappointed when I saw most of the photos because the photos were very blur or not clear.

After the dinner, many of the people dance in front of the stage. However, I never thought that I want to join. It was not my type to rock anywhere.

I went back around 11.20pm. I almost want to cry when I lost my way in 1u. I can only blame myself why my direction sense is so bad. I used more than 30 minutes to find the shop or the places which I came out from the parking. I was scare and felt helpless that time. End up, the security asked me where I want to go because he saw me for the second times after 10 to 20 minutes. Also, I had to thank to the security because bring me to the car park. I had walked one round of 1u from the beginning to another end and turn back to the beginning. My parking was very near to the hotel, but end up I walk very long distance to reach there. It was similar when I went to the hotel from the car park because I also walk to another end before I find my way to the hotel. I think I will never forget the night walk inside 1u.

It was a memorable night for me because of the lost.

Surprise

I am really very surprise that my friend was broke with her boyfriend. I get the news from another friend, I need to thank to her to inform me about this. I had not met my friend more than a year after she graduated. I still remembered that she want me to go to her wedding dinner in year 2010 in Penang. They planned their wedding on 121212 which mean is 12 December 2012. After graduated, my friend moved to Penang and settled down there because her boyfriend hometown is there.

After sometimes, the things did not go very smoothly. I decided to call my friend at night when I heard the news. However, I forgot about it when I was too concentrating on my works. When I realized about it, the time already passed 12 midnight. I called my friend the next day at night while I was still working. I felt relieved when my friend told me that she is fine and will move back to KL next month.

I must control my emotions when I am talk to my friends in public places. I forgot that others actually can hear my conversation. It was luckily that I did not say others bad things. If not, I will be on trouble. However, others asked me that am I quarreled with someone or discussed something that cannot be solved in the moment with others?

I am surprise why the things can be like this. I am scare about all this. I just want a simple life and a happy life. I try to enjoy the work although it was not in the reality. I hope I will not change in the future and keep a happy mind during the work as others say this is impossible.

Comments

The time seems like pass quite fast as I had worked for 2 months and 1 week in the firm. The tears came out with no reasons after I had read my friend post. She did her laundry at 2.30am and washed her toilet at 3am in the morning. How about me? I thought I can keep the soup until the next day, but end up I had totally forgot about it when I reach home at 3am the next day. Therefore, I should throw and clean everything before the next day is coming. I do my laundry at 2am is look like quite normal to me already, but only for those shirt which cannot be put into the washing machine. However, it is quite a sad case that I had to wash my clothes with washing machine at night as well.

Sometimes, I really think that I want to be away from the stress. I try my best to enjoy the works and forgot about the stress. I thought I can do it but I fail to do it. At home, I always fall asleep in front of my pc. At last, I plan to sleep at 10 something because I do not think that I can stand it anymore, but end up I slept at 3 something in the morning and choose to continue my work.

Also, I thought that I can stand with the speed of umobile. I decided to buy ‘yes’ when I am really impatient to wait for the slow connection. It was time consuming and wasted out time to wait for the page to load or even cannot connect to msn. I like the feeling when the internet is consider fast enough. However, it needs to be paid even more compare to what I had used now. I think I will never regret to change it. However, I will go for unifi in future to save more.