Accounting Night之序

五年的大学生涯，虽然没有在学业上创造出一个惊人的历史，可是却办过了大大小小的活动。曾经认为能在IVAQ里给自己留下一个美好的纪念，可是却是一片伤感。现在所希望的就是好好享受还剩下40天的大学生活，为自己留下一个美好的回忆。

剩下的两个活动，都是自己付出了相当多的时间和努力。Accounting Night为了就是我班上所有人的一次聚会，一次能让人怀念的时刻，我真的很希望所有的同学朋友能出席，可是却还是有些人无法出席。说真的，会有点点的失望。虽然这一个不是所谓的prom night，也可能节目不会比其他的多和精彩，也不能携带你们的男女朋友一起出席，可是这个是属于我们班上的，不会有其他prom night是能有那么多我们的同班同学一起出席的一场盛会。

还剩下两个星期的活动，我不晓得我能做得了什么东西，是不是能做得到我想为大家做的东西呢？很多人的不合作，自己一个人的力量是不是能成功呢？可是我知道，我要做的回忆录，只有成功是不能有失败的理由。到最后能不能感动到每一个人都流泪，我就真的无法预测了。泪点蛮高的我，会不会在想到我们大家的离开而流泪呢？

虽然我是筹备的其中一个人，但我却无法想象当晚的情况，到底我们要留一个怎么样的回忆给大家呢？可是，一个值得庆幸的是我们突破了历年来出席率最好的一次了，因为我们已经达到了80%的出席率。我一定会努力把这一次的accounting night办得最成功的，虽然我无法强逼所有人都到来，也无法达到我想要的100%出席率，可是你们在我心目中还是最棒的一班。

9th IVAQ

I felt sad when MMU cannot enter to the final. I was quite upset when I look at the question. It was so easy because it just some theory question, but I fail to do it. We expected more calculation but end up it came up such a question. I may be just being able to blame myself why I did not read more theory to gain additional knowledge, and prepare well for it. It maybe was my fault due to not prepare it for a long period. We must get to prepare always to compete with others.

There was a lesson for us today, which were a lot of competitors outside. To compete with them, I should become better than them. I think that no time was not an excuse which can be forgivable. I must improve my efficiency to do something, so that I will have more time in a day. I must clear my mind and achieve the better result. It was really sad when we can not get what we expected for it.

IVAQ came to the end after we had worked hard for one week plus. Another thing begins when we have to start our assignment and preparation of our activities. IVAQ was over but it does not mean all the things will stop at this point. We still need to proceed to it and get better next time. Lose is a starting point for us to achieve successful. As long as we do the best, we will not regret for it, although we get nothing for everything.

他们说，这样的女生很真

有一种女孩子在陌生人面前会很安静，很冷漠，
在熟人面前却很放肆，很霸道，
并喜欢一咋一呼的说：“滚，滚蛋，坏蛋，笨蛋”。
不要认为她很粗鲁，她只是很单纯的认为，
大家打打闹闹，骂骂笑笑，表示更亲切，更不分你我。

这一种女孩子不谈恋爱，只在姐妹间游荡
即使有不错的朋友，她还是无奈的笑笑
其实她只是在不能确定自己付出的前提下
不会接受，因为不想伤害。

这一种女孩子偶尔看到街上的情侣时，
也会幻想，也会羡慕，
幻想着将来自己的恋爱
该是多么的帅气，多么的温柔，多么的甜蜜

这一种女孩子，
喜欢和自己的姐妹在一起打闹，大呼小叫。
即使没有男朋友，
在她的世界里，也有她的骄傲！

这种女孩子也会偶尔的忧郁，
朋友问她怎么了 她也只会说没事
其实她只是感觉累了，
她只是需要一个拥抱。

这种女孩子不会轻易恋爱，恋爱了一定会好好珍惜。
她会骄傲的拉着他的手大街小逛，
不要认为她放肆，
她只是答应过姐妹们幸福要大家一块分享。

这样的女孩子恋爱的时候
喜欢大事听男孩子的而在小事上调皮，耍赖。
不要认为她太小气，蛮不讲理，
其实在她调皮的习惯里已经为你收敛不少！

这样的女孩子不允许男孩子的背叛，
如果男孩子真的办了对不起她的事，
她一定会狠心的离开你。
不要怪她太绝情，
她其实很爱你，但是卑微的爱情她不要，
她果断的转身只是不想让你看见她滑落的泪水！

这样的女孩子失恋的时候会在别人面前装的很好，
大声的笑，放声的闹。
当姐妹心疼的说：“你没事吧？”
她会放下她所有的骄傲，趴到姐妹怀里哭。
哭完了，苦笑一声：没想到我还会为一个男的哭。

若你遇到了这样的女孩，
如果你们是朋友，请原谅她平日的不理不睬，
其实她只是不会社交，不敢打扰，
你想想你的每一次邀约，她拒绝过你。
如果你喜欢上她，请你不要说出来，
因为她很幼稚，你会吓跑她。
原谅她的冷漠，
她只是怕伤害你！

若她喜欢上你，请你不要在她的世界里消失。
她没有更多的要求，不会打扰你的生活。
她只是想静静的看着你，
当你的观众，仅此而已。

如果你们已经在一起了，
请你好好珍惜她。
这样的女孩子、太傻，
请你别让她受伤。

这一种女孩子就以这样的方式生活着，
她有她的梦想，她的希望。
一个如花儿般的女孩子，
她时而快乐，时而忧伤；
时而郁闷，时而疯狂；
时而邪恶，时而善良；
时而脆弱，时而坚强！
你可以说她傻，也可以骂她笨，也可以说她冷，
但是她们还是生活在自己的世界里，
希望做一个幸福、善良的孩子！

Am I braved or don’t scare to die?

I am very happy because I am selected to represent the university to participate in Intervarsity Accounting Quiz (IVAQ). However, I am stress because I almost forgot everything. And now, I have only 5 days to do my preparation which I had to study the syllabus from first year until my last year. I really scare that I will make my entire lecturer to become disappointed because lose in the competition.

All of my friends choose to participate in the group. However, I choose to join the individual? Am I really braved? If I entered the final round, I will be alone on the stage and no one can help me if I not understand the question. The situation is very terrible and unimaginable. Also, I am sure I will be very nervous that time. On the other hand, I should think positively because it is the time for me to train myself to become more confident and brave and no one will blame me if I lose the game.

I am sure I can do it if I want to do it. I must be more confident and more hardworking to prepare for the quiz. Wish me all the best.

A super busy days

For me, I was really busy for this few days. I just feel like dying. I was doing something non stop since Wednesday until yesterday night. On Wednesday morning, I went to do a Malaysian soft skill questionnaire for 180 questions. I did it quickly just because I want to rush for my class at 10am and went back home to take something before that. However, I failed the mission because I was so lucky being chosen to the interview to the soft skill. After I finished the interview, the time was 10.30am. It means I was late for 30 minutes. Therefore, I chose to run to the class. It may be is a good exercise when running. After I finished my class, I took a bus to Kuala Lumpur because I had an assessment in the next morning.

I was really tired when I finished my journey for the assessment. I had to rush back to Malacca to complete some of my activities' jobs before I can go for class at night. I wanted to have a nap before but time was not allowed me to do so. Luckily, I never sleep inside the class, and I looked fresh after I make up due to a photo session in our class. After my class ended, I decided to sleep earlier, but I had to teach my junior accounting. As a result, I slept at 12 something, although I was very sleepy at 11pm.

On Friday, I and my friends went for shopping to shop for our dinner’s dress. Luckily, I did not promise my friend to have breakfast together in the early morning because I did not want to wake up during that time. I thought I was too tired for few days. We went to many shops and tried more than 50 dresses in total. We tried some of the dress were just for fun because the price was very expensive until we not afford to buy or rent it. It can only fulfill our desired to wear the beautiful gown. At the end, I get one dress. Shopping really needed a good mood and energy. If this does not happen, I rather not to go for shop anything. After we went for shopping one whole day, it was tiring but it not an end of the day. I had to go to practice my dance for whole night.

It finally came to an end for these three busy days. However, another full of the activity day is continuing. It looked like never ending things in our life.

English???

I will go for an assessment tomorrow. I hope everything is fine. I am always very confident to myself which I can do anything if I want to do it. However, I lost my confident when come to English test. I did not afraid any of my subjects, which teach in English because I know I can do it. I just scare or phobia for the English examination. I know my English standard was quite low, but why I lost everything is due to my English since my secondary school.

I had try my best to improve my English, but why my language still so weak. I trained myself always and force myself to speak English. I am glad because my roommate was Indian for 3 years. I had many chances to share our feeling with each others in English. However, I know my English still very weak although I can understand all my lecturer notes and class.

How can I improve my English? Should I blame myself since young due to no study hard for it? I maybe just can say accept whatever it is and improved my ability in everything. Everything is a success although it is not a success from others point of view. Every road is not an end when we face the difficulty. Out of the difficulty, there is a miracle. Everything happen is just a fate like I do not know why I studied accounts although I will graduate soon.

My midterm break

Is my midterm break just started? The answer is no because I already finished my holiday. During my holiday, I became busier in comparison to normal study day. I have more time when others have their class during the daytime. We will not have any activities for that time. However, we have all kinds of activities day and night during the break since all of us are so free.

I start my incredible journey after I finished my midterm examination. I had to practice my orchestra day and night from Friday to Monday and Friday to Sunday. It means I just leave 3 days for my holiday. However, I had to practice dance during these three days. And, it came to an end for my holiday.

The saddest case is I get my ulcer during my holiday. Normally, I get my ulcer in my mouth during my exam time. Why can it happen? It is terrible or I really so stress for it. It almost breaks my record which I had 6 ulcers in one time after I finished orchestra practice for one day 3 years ago. Hopefully, I will not break my own record for it. It really pain until I want to use salt to increase my pain. I only know that pain for a while is better than I pain for the whole day.

I cannot really imagine my last midterm break is passed like this. It even is my busiest midterm break in my university life. Our plan is gone which we wish to go for travel or shopping during the break. The only place I went was Jonker Street. Haiz.

守时

老师时常教我们做什么事情都好一定要守时，可是呢？为什么那么多人就偏偏就不守时呢？习惯一向来都准时或是早到的我，怎么要把我改成宁愿迟到也不想早到呢？可是我迟到还是差不多最早到的那一位，是不是有点的搞笑？这样到底是浪费大家的时间，还是最有空的是我呢？

很多时候，我都很不习惯他们那么的不守时，还是越来越离谱的，半小时算是还好，可是一个多两个小时，又是什么道理呢？一句习惯就好，难道真的就那么的好吗？可是，我却一点都不好，我到底在坚持些什么东西呢？想到还有三个星期的练习时间，那么就算了吧。说真的，他们能不能守时呢？这三天的练习时间，又会有多少呢？加油吧。。一切顺其自然，希望真的能够习惯。

Why I so busy?

I had my midterm break for one week from 8 of May until 16 of May. However, it does not look like a break for me. I am even busier than I have class during weekdays. It was just the same or worst, although I just take two subjects for this long trimester. My life is full of the activities until I had no time to rest. I am busy until no time to check my email and Facebook.

For this few days, I had to practice my Chinese orchestra, dance for accounting nights, teach my junior, and play badminton and so on. I had no time to do my assignment and prepare for my accounting quiz, which will hold next Saturday. However, I enjoyed the busier life, but I really had to work hard for the dance which I think I had no talent for it. I really do not know why I promised them to dance. I hope I really can make it a success.

It was really nice when my junior cook for me. The food is delicious. I like it just because no need to eat outside food. I really need to thank for her.

Chinese Orchestra Performance at UTeM

Our Chinese Orchestra Society had been invited to perform during their Spring Festival in UTeM (University Technical Malaysia Melaka). When I went to UTeM for the first time, the university is really amazing. The very beautiful road looks like just build for that university because no other place is being developed so far around that area. When we entered the university, there is no end border from our view. We can see as far as we want because all the tree still very small due to it is a new university.

We had two day rehearsal for our 15-minute performance. One thing which I really not like are we had to change the original song after we rehearsal for two days. The PA system is a bit weird, which makes us cannot listen to others clearly.

From so many performances, I really had to touch up my skill especially for our orchestra concert in April. Practice is always making perfect. I do not want to perform every time, and I also felt very guilty because I did a lot of mistakes during the performance. All the best for myself.

For their Spring Festival, I saw few Malay dance our Chinese culture dance. It really showed here is Malaysia and did the 1 Malaysia. Many of the audiences are come from different races to celebrate our Chinese New Year altogether.

Finished midterm exam

Two days continuous exam is still comfortable for it. I am quite lucky because I had finished my subjects previously. Unlike my friends, they have 4 subjects for midterm test in 4 days. Another one even had 5 midterm test in 4 days.

Finally, it came to an end. I finished my midterm exam and just need to complete my final exam on 6 of May, I will be graduated from Bachelor of Accounting. It needs a lot of hard work to complete the whole journey. However, it does not mean I will very free for this semester due to, I just take two subjects. I still need to do a lot of others things included to get prepare for my orchestra concert, IVAQ, interview, accounting night, teach the junior for accounting and many others more. I just hope everything will fine.

三月

今天已经是三月二日了，这好像是废话，日子本来就会一天一天的过去，其实今天几日都不是很重要。虽然我只有两科，可是我却不觉得我非常有空。难道我真的是那种不是那么的喜欢无忧无虑生活的那些人吗，喜欢一些充满着挑战的生活呢？很多事情很想去做，可是却好像没有心还是没有时间把它完成。就好像我的小说写了很久，都停了下来，也不知道几时回继续了，我脑海中想做的flash，把所有的回忆都放在里面，也不知道什么时候能够完成，还有很多东西需要学的。

我要一个怎么样的生活呢？我自己都好像在矛盾之中，虽然说好像有一大堆的计划，可是这样的顺其自然是不是真正想要的呢？也许就是还没有找到更好的出路之前，这就已经是最好的出路了。何必有那么的烦呢？

人成长后，就没有那么多的无忧无虑，做很多事情都需要顾虑这一个，顾虑哪一个，就所谓人在江湖身不由己。人随着时间改变了，所写的东西都有所不同，以往的独来独往，从不需要理会别人怎么看，都好像渐渐的减少了，也不知道这到底是不是开心的。

很多时候很想找个人依赖一下，不用所有事情都要自己承担，可是这样换来的伤害，我宁愿独自承担好了。想回家，可是却懒得搭巴士，可惜我没有车。有车后，又会埋怨为何自己的技术那么差呢？人的一生中总是会有很多的自相矛盾，就是一些专牛角尖的矛盾，唉。

废话完后，面对一下事实吧！为晚上的考试加油，别一边读书，一边胡思乱想了。加油加油加油哦。