忆在二零一零

三年前（2007尾声）曾经写过的一篇回忆，看过那篇文章回想起的时候才知道原来发生过那么多的事情。时隔三年，也才发现我在年尾或年头不曾记录一年来的心情。2009年，刚从台湾回来。2008年，却是忙着准备考试的一年。2010年，应该就是忙工作，可是我还希望我有时间整理自己的心情。也发现自己还蛮喜欢看回自己每一次的原创，也许这就是比较自恋吧！哈哈。



以下文章纯粹创作：



我

你我

曾经相遇

现在还好吗

一年前一年后

时间慢慢的飞逝

成长中的喜怒哀乐

无法避免深夜里的悲

可忙的借口却挂在嘴边

疲惫厌倦却还是笑口常开

开心欢乐是一生里面的宗旨

爱没有如果你不需要假设什么

泪水是在坚强中学习不让它滑落

学习成长只是人生必然经过的道路

只能深深的相信明天就是未来的到来

没有对不起也没有错对的世界中度过的

有一种落寞的温暖是否还一样存在呢

一些回忆是留不住但也带不走停留

跌跌撞撞只寻找最初梦想和天堂

快乐的开始不该是悲伤的结束

煎熬的生活还是一样要度过

是否能度过还是一个迷惑

挡风挡雨的你是否还在

还是伤感是一种形容

一年后是否还一样

二零一零结束了

只希望会更好

更加的完美

更加开心

只留下

美好

愿

Outstation

Someone told me that he not really like outstation because it is more tiring compared to normal work. Also, your feeling will totally not the same as you go to travel. However, I like to go outstation although it is tiring for the time being. It is because we can go different places for free although we have to work day and night. We can go somewhere that we will not go normally if we go travel. Besides, I had no money to go travel. Therefore, there is no reasons for me do not want to go outstation since I like to travel so much.

This time is my second assignment for outstation. First assignment for outstation, I went to Indonesia for one week. It was a great experience for me although it was super tired as I was fall asleep during working. For my second outstation, I went to Pahang for estate visit in Bera, Triang, Rentam, Mengkarak and Palong. We need to go there for 2 weeks. It should be a great expedition.

I had passed by so many estates in Pahang since young. I like the palm oil because the view is very beautiful along the road. However, I have no chances to go in before this. And now, I finally have chance to go to visit. I will look forward to the experience in this coming two weeks although this is not my first time have a near distance contact with palm oil or rubbers trees.
The only thing which I hope is I still manage to online in these two weeks.

KSP Night

Our KSP night had been organized in one world hotel. I never plan to go to this night, but I never regret to go to the night as well. The reasons why I feel like not really want to join are because I do not like to drink as most of the function is like this. When I reach the ball room, all the people are quite strange to me. Is this my problem?

I am very surprise when my friend called me that night to take photo. I never met her after our convocation. I tried to date her for few times but fail at the end. I was so happy when I met her outside the ball room. The friendship will never end although we did not meet for sometimes.

The programs were not special because only singing, fashion shows and lucky draws. I was not very lucky because I had long time never get any prize for lucky draws. I took quite a lot photos with different people that night. However, I was disappointed when I saw most of the photos because the photos were very blur or not clear.

After the dinner, many of the people dance in front of the stage. However, I never thought that I want to join. It was not my type to rock anywhere.

I went back around 11.20pm. I almost want to cry when I lost my way in 1u. I can only blame myself why my direction sense is so bad. I used more than 30 minutes to find the shop or the places which I came out from the parking. I was scare and felt helpless that time. End up, the security asked me where I want to go because he saw me for the second times after 10 to 20 minutes. Also, I had to thank to the security because bring me to the car park. I had walked one round of 1u from the beginning to another end and turn back to the beginning. My parking was very near to the hotel, but end up I walk very long distance to reach there. It was similar when I went to the hotel from the car park because I also walk to another end before I find my way to the hotel. I think I will never forget the night walk inside 1u.

It was a memorable night for me because of the lost.

Surprise

I am really very surprise that my friend was broke with her boyfriend. I get the news from another friend, I need to thank to her to inform me about this. I had not met my friend more than a year after she graduated. I still remembered that she want me to go to her wedding dinner in year 2010 in Penang. They planned their wedding on 121212 which mean is 12 December 2012. After graduated, my friend moved to Penang and settled down there because her boyfriend hometown is there.

After sometimes, the things did not go very smoothly. I decided to call my friend at night when I heard the news. However, I forgot about it when I was too concentrating on my works. When I realized about it, the time already passed 12 midnight. I called my friend the next day at night while I was still working. I felt relieved when my friend told me that she is fine and will move back to KL next month.

I must control my emotions when I am talk to my friends in public places. I forgot that others actually can hear my conversation. It was luckily that I did not say others bad things. If not, I will be on trouble. However, others asked me that am I quarreled with someone or discussed something that cannot be solved in the moment with others?

I am surprise why the things can be like this. I am scare about all this. I just want a simple life and a happy life. I try to enjoy the work although it was not in the reality. I hope I will not change in the future and keep a happy mind during the work as others say this is impossible.

Comments

The time seems like pass quite fast as I had worked for 2 months and 1 week in the firm. The tears came out with no reasons after I had read my friend post. She did her laundry at 2.30am and washed her toilet at 3am in the morning. How about me? I thought I can keep the soup until the next day, but end up I had totally forgot about it when I reach home at 3am the next day. Therefore, I should throw and clean everything before the next day is coming. I do my laundry at 2am is look like quite normal to me already, but only for those shirt which cannot be put into the washing machine. However, it is quite a sad case that I had to wash my clothes with washing machine at night as well.

Sometimes, I really think that I want to be away from the stress. I try my best to enjoy the works and forgot about the stress. I thought I can do it but I fail to do it. At home, I always fall asleep in front of my pc. At last, I plan to sleep at 10 something because I do not think that I can stand it anymore, but end up I slept at 3 something in the morning and choose to continue my work.

Also, I thought that I can stand with the speed of umobile. I decided to buy ‘yes’ when I am really impatient to wait for the slow connection. It was time consuming and wasted out time to wait for the page to load or even cannot connect to msn. I like the feeling when the internet is consider fast enough. However, it needs to be paid even more compare to what I had used now. I think I will never regret to change it. However, I will go for unifi in future to save more.

第九届全国大专与毕业生象棋个人赛

9届的大专赛里面，MMU办过了4次大专赛，可是这一次却连办了3次大专赛。因为前两次的比赛，我认识了很多不同的棋手，唯一的不一样是，我这一次是以参赛者的身份出席这次的比赛，不真的不晓得我是不是真的非常喜欢象棋，还是纯粹去凑热闹的，还是真的因为责任感而回去。以前我不会很勇敢的参赛，可能是输不起吧，也很怕自己因为输棋而当场哭了。这一次竟是去挑战自己的忍耐度和坚强度，要勇敢承受失败的挫折，我破了我自己的记录，竟然是全场输完，我才发现原来我还承受得住失败的成绩，虽然有几度是想哭的。没有失败过，没给别人提醒过的小孩，怎么会更加的成熟和坚强呢？

我们差不多有10个人从kl一起去马六甲比赛，我们算是占了比赛棋手的1/5，因为只有48人参赛，可是我们却有6个人得奖，冠军也是属于我们其中一人的，他们真的很不错。比赛结束后，我们就去庆祝了一番。

在这一次的比赛，我学习了很多。原来成为比赛中的唯一一个女棋手也有奖拿的，虽然我是名落孙山。一个特别精神奖，我得到了一副相当美丽的棋盘和棋子，参赛真的需要很多的勇气，毕竟自己的棋艺也不是很强，也有相当久的时间没有下棋了。裁判长也指导了我很多不同的布局，引导我下错的地方，我相信我自己还有很多的进步空间。时间配合得到的话，我还蛮感兴趣的去学象棋。如果有一天，能代表也算是不错的荣誉，只不过是我想太多了。平时懒得用脑的我，象棋真的让我学会怎么去用脑。我感觉到我跟以前比起来我进步了很多，至少我还能背出我走过差不多有80%的棋步，可是记忆力竟然只能够维持在一场之后。想回以前，若叫我复盘，简直就是要了我的命，我根本不会记得我走过什么。

每一次的象棋比赛都有一个共同点，棋手都很喜欢把奖杯送给我。每一年都有一个吧！或许对每一次都参加比赛的棋手来说，奖杯没有什么纪念价值，钱比较实际的。什么时候才轮到我自己亲手赢回一个呢？或许真的要等到我很有毅力的时候了。

感谢你们安排交通载我下去和回来，还好你们没有让我驾车下去，因为我好像不够精神驾车去马六甲，谢谢你们让我有个愉快的星期六和日，至少也锻炼我用脑下棋。

Long hours not equal nightmare

Last time during my training, I always thought that work late or during the weekend or public holiday is my nightmare. However, I realized that I am wrong now. I not really have a nightmare, although I had broken my record for the time when I reached home compared to my training last time.

I think it is because of my mentality not well prepared during my training. It was a big change to what I can imagine it that time. I should prepare my mentality well for my peak period next year. Will it be very scary? If not, it may be my nightmare or super stress that time. Whenever I had enough time to prepare it, I do not think that it will be a problem to me. After gone through the tougher life, it will be nothing special already.

How am I learning everything in a shorter time period? In reality, my enthusiasm looks like not comparative to my sleepiness. I must adapt to the long working hours' environment. I must minimize my error or mistake in my working as we must distribute an error free deliverable. I hope I can do it and must do it well.

Buffer dinner

My small network group organized for a buffer dinner at Lemon Garden, Shangri-la hotel. It is my first time went to Shangri-la hotel. The hotel is really nice and the food can consider not bad. Only five of us turn out for the dinner because our partner has a meeting and another went back to Melaka due to some reason. It is quite a surprise that our group consists of all girls, and we gossip a lot.

In our group, 2 persons are going to resign soon. It is no doubt that our industry is much mobilized. People are quite important as we have long working hours. We stay together with our teammate is more than we saw others friends or family. One of them stated a very good statement which is we cannot change our work, stress, dateline and so on, but we can change our choice. We can choose to work happily or moody face. For me, I will choose to work happily. Laugh and smile can increase the motivation towards our work and help us to release some of the stress. Laugh as much as we can as long as we are not crying.

For now, I have to make sure myself is efficiency enough to afford the work load because I think that I am not really that efficient. Am I really not efficient? I am really no idea about it. Sometime, I cannot accept the slow speed of the work. I must train myself to be more efficient. I hope I can do it. I cannot imagine the situation when we will face our peak period as I have not yet gone through it. Is it really that bad compared to what I imagine? I will know it after few months. I hope it will be fine for me. I may only be able to make sure I have a healthy life, so that I will not be sick during that time because I do not think that we have time for us to rest in a sickness.

A weekend

Since I started my work until now, I had passed 7 weekends. This weekend can only consider is the first week that I enjoyed the most at kl. I had long time did not go to shopping and buy new cloths. In my memory, the very last time should be at least 10 to 11 months ago. I like to shop if my mood is good and not in a rush time. Or else, I am rather not to shop any.

I went to Times Square with another friend at Saturday to meet my friend who came back to Malaysia from Singapore. Unfortunately, we not manage to meet each other at the end due to the time constraint. This is not the first time that I want to meet someone around bukit bintang, but end up with nothing. It is because we busy shopping until we forgot each others. That day, we came together and separate in the shopping mall for different things. It is quite enjoy shopping alone.

On Sunday, I went to the Terry Fox run which organized by Cancer Research Association. It is a charity run at Taman Tasik Titiwangsa for around 3.5km. It is my first time went to an event for a run. Normally, I am not physically fit, but I want to train myself to become physically fit. I was lucky because I meet someone that I know in the run. If not, I think I had to run alone. For the run, it needed a lot of mentality power to support us to run to the end. However, I think that I am not air to run constantly. During the run, there were so many people over there. It is a good experience for me and my main purpose is going to exercise.

因为有了你

一场毫无防备的大雨，扰乱了女孩心中的平静。一颗雨滴就穿破了女孩所有的防御，没有的防备女孩更加的感觉孤单。生活中的难题就如雨声共存的雨季，凡事要避免也避免不到的东西，就好像雨季的到来并不是女孩能控制的。

孤单总是有漆黑的夜晚来做伴，在黑暗中寻找不到孤单的踪影，女孩的安心，但女孩是多么的期望有你的陪伴。可是浪漫却总是没有你的陪伴，脑海中的你却不在女孩的身边，女孩失望是因在凌晨中寻找不到你的身影，只好默默的让孤单陪在身边。有多少人会期盼无数个难熬的日夜呢？在难熬的日夜里，女孩只是在等待彩虹的醒来，女孩常说这样的日子还是挺不错的，至少是过得充实的。

因为有你，多么坎坷的日子，对女孩而言都不是难题。因为有你，生活再煎熬，女孩都不会害怕。无论东西再难，生活再苦，时间再长，女孩心中还是一样的美丽。女孩不会为了狂风暴雨而感到不安，因为女孩总是深信你会伸出援手，助女孩渡过难关，这也是旁人永不了解的地方，温暖的幸福就是如此的清晰，只望这一切都不是女孩的幻想。

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歌名：因为有了你(合唱)

歌手：吴翼男

专辑：我听说



那是一场毫无防备的大雨

他的身影扰乱了我们平静的森林

一颗雨滴就穿破我们所有人的防御

那是一个雨声共存的雨季

孤单总有漆黑的夜来做伴

浪漫却总是没有你陪伴

无数个难熬的日夜有多少人期盼

在明明中等待彩虹的醒来



因为有了你　

如今的森林才那样美丽

无论风再狂　雨再大

我们都不会害怕

因为有了你　

温暖的幸福才如此清晰

无论怎样的坎坷

都不是难题

Port Dickson Away Day

Port Dickson is my first company trip since I joined. In my memory, this is my second time went to PD. The sea is not really nice which is similar to my expectation. However, the scenery is beautiful.

I drive to Port Dickson early in the morning. It was heavy rain when I go to Kepong to fetch one of my friends. Also, my GPS showed me an ending road which I totally not familiar about that. At the end, I need to U-turn and drive to somewhere which I more familiar with. I am the first time drive to Kepong and Port Dickson. It is really challenging when I drive during raining day especially when a lorry beside my car. I felt it is quite dangerous.

During our Away day, we separated in 6 groups and compete with one another. My team is Goodzilla. All the games are considered normal, but need some stamina to complete it. Our team won most of the game. All of them are very good in physical including the girls. The most memorable game is the tug-of-war. It was my first time playing the tug-of-war. I am not really physically fit, but I was so excited when our team won the games. In our final, I felt that almost all of us want to give up because it was so difficult to pull and the time was very long. The strength and the energy which we used are up to the max. At last, we won for the game and I am so excited although I am hurt. My hand was bruise and it was painful. Also, someone was step on my legs during the first game for few times. Luckily, it just turn into red color for sometimes only without any injury.

At night, we had a BBQ dinner. Some of them drink a lot which I not really like about this. However, I still drank one cup of wine. I went back to bath after the dinner around 12am. After bathing, I went out with my friend to enjoy the night peaceful scenery. Both of us love natural very much. We went back to the room around 2am and wake up around 7am to walk at the beach. I like the weather in the morning, it quite windy.

The wonderful time was passed very fast. It came to the end of our away day. We no need to think about the work at the moment. Thanks to everyone for the great moment of our away day.

Enjoy our life

“I finally figured outthe only reason to be aliveis to enjoy it.”
~ Rita Mae Brown

Rita Mae Brown is an American writer who born in 1944 at Hanover, Pennsylvania, USA. Her thought is really meaningful to all of us. She stated that “I finally figured out the only reason to be alive is to enjoy it”. Our life is tough, but we have to enjoy our work and our life.

The time is flied very fast because I had started my working life for a month. I had my training for 2 weeks and on job for another 3 weeks. The life is a bit miserable as we worked for overtime almost every day either at home or in the office. I am not sure whether I can do it or not, but it is still not my nightmare in the meanwhile. I hope I will have more time in a day, so that I can learn it and digest it slowly. Thanks for my senior who actually guide me very well. Sometimes, I feel a bit guilty because he needs to repeat the same things for few times and he has a lot of things to do. The tiredness can see through from our face indeed. Also, I look like a bit blur when I am not managed to catch up something.

However, I think that I really need to improve my computer skill. I am really envy to my senior and manager because they can click something within a few seconds while I am totally no idea what they click to done the job faster. It is a really a basic things which I had to improve beside than my English language. I must train myself to become a multi-tasking person and remember everything which I must remember. I must immune myself that I can enjoy and do everything faster.

Enjoy and happy all the time is our main purpose of the life even we are not happy or not enjoy it. We must have the positive thinking, so that we can only motivate ourselves.

郁闷

有时候真的不是很能原谅我自己，为什么凡事都不能小心一点呢？这样的事情也不是第一次了，我到底什么时候才学会照顾好自己的东西呢？不是忘记这个，就是忘记那个。还是我是凡走过的地方都一定要留下痕迹？把东西留在那里，当作是一种纪念？或许这一次会比较好一点，至少我三天后就发现了，上一次好像是两个月后才发现我的shampoo没有带回来，唉。好像都是后知后觉的，什么时候才学会还没发生就知道了呢？

还是我是累到什么都忘记了，就连我什么时候是最后一次使用它，我也忘记了。那么的小细节都做不好，到底还能做些什么大事呢？责怪自己到底又有何用呢？难道还小吗？要成熟一点啊？我还算是一个专业人士，怎么能这样呢？或许只能怪自己那么的不小心，为了工作什么都能忘记了。整个月了，我除了工作之外，我好像也没有做过其他东西了。我好像也是属于一个工作狂，要在最短时间学会最多东西，就是有一定的付出代价了。

再伤心也是无补的，只能接受事实了，除非有奇迹出现，还是自己遗忘了在某个角落，但这一种机会是多么的渺茫。难道还小吗？哭而无泪，有点的想哭却哭不出来了。唉。笑着过日子吧！人会比较开心一点的。哈哈。。哈哈。。

印尼和新加坡

第一次在一个星期内去了两个国家，坐了四架飞机，三种不同的航班，旅途相当的累，可是我们去没有玩，因为是去公干，或许是能说的除了工作还是工作了，只是在不同的地方工作，这可能是一种乐趣，去不同的地方能了解不同的东西，这也是一种好事。可是时间太赶了，有压力好像也是难免的。时间不够就是最大的压力了。

我们从kl飞到去jakarta，旅途两小时。jakarta的时间慢一小时，天气还蛮热的，飞机场也没有怎么样，就是有点的热。等了我们check out又check in，从jakarta飞去balikpapan。balikpapan是一个nyaman,damai,beriman的地方，是安全的，但怎么走也只有一条街。地方看起来是一个不怎么起眼的城市，可是却是麻雀虽小，五脏俱全的。但是，电灯却不是那么的稳定，一天跳几次电。

虽然很累也不是很够睡，但我觉得还不错的旅途，至少能出国吧。去一些没有去过的地方，也可能不会去的地方，所以再累也应该是值得的。

从印尼回来，我们在新加坡转机。逗留了一天，可是我们却睡到12点才起身，我想应该是太累了吧，我已经超过很久很久没有在10点过后起身了。一觉睡到天亮，连不熟悉的床也一样。只能证明了一句，就是我们都太累了。

第一次进赌场，却是在新加坡，可是我却没有赌，算是进去参观吧。以前想象不到赌场是一个怎么样的地方，现在却见识到了，原来是那么的庞大的，人也是人山人海。连云顶那么靠近的赌场，我也没有进过，不知道是失败还是什么了。哈哈。不过，真的让我打看眼见了。

8天的旅途就这样结束了。认识了一班在新加坡工作的朋友，可是却没有去找我的朋友，因为我也没有他们的电话，唉。还有，我学会了skating，能自己滑的时候，真的很高兴。哈哈。一开始，我真的很怕很怕，还好有两位朋友拉着我走，不然我相信我一定会跌到了。比起ice skating，在路上skating好像比较有安全感比较容易，至少有4个轮。虽然不是很快，但还算是成功的第一步。在east coast park里面，我第一次看到那么多的脚车，那么多的skating鞋。这个真的是一个不错的经验。两个小时里面，我还蛮enjoy的。一个晚上，我也见识了不少。新加坡的夜生活，真的是我第一次见。

Not enough sleep

For 3 weeks, I just sleep average for 5 to 6 hours every day including Saturday and Sunday since I started my work. It is fun but quite tired actually. We read a lot during the training and after our training. It seems like information overload to me although I had learned most of the things before this. I had to refresh my knowledge which I had gained one year ago.

I start to become suspicious that is my life just for working in the time being? I seem like nothing to do except thinking of my work although without overtime claim. However, I feel like time flied very fast since I started my first job. It passed for 3 weeks without my notice. In 3 weeks, a lot of things happened including whether I can take leave to my brother’s convocation or not. It had changed few time between can or cannot. At the end, I failed to go to the convocation because I am not in Malaysia during that time. The process is just like the changes from happy, sad, disappointed, and fantastic to excited.

I think it is worth because I have the chances to go overseas and go travel around. I am looking forward to my trip although I think I will totally not enough sleep for the week when I am outstation. I will try to enjoy myself because all my trips previously is less sleeping time, so that we can travel more places which we wanted it to be happened.

Traffic in KL

Before I drove to work every morning, I thought I scare for the cars. However, I now only realized that I am wrong because I more scare for the motorcycles. Every morning or the time when I went back home, there are a lot of motorcycles on the road. It is difficult to drive especially during traffic jam.

Besides, I am quite lazy to take LRT to work although the traffic is jam. It is because I need to walk a distance and need to pack inside the LRT. Furthermore, all my things are quite heavy actually. It may be the reasons for me to be stuck inside the traffic jam.

I hope my parking skill and driving skill will be improved after sometimes. However, I am sure with this intensive training. I can do it.

美乐家使命感

美乐家是一间环保超市，它没有通过广告商和分销商的一间工厂，制造的都是环保安全无毒的日常用品，都是一些我们每一天都需要用的东西。与其去其他地方买，倒不如到美乐家的环保超市购买。得到一个健康的生活，帮助每一个人远离毒害，美乐家的使命是多么的大。

我个人真的彻底的被美乐家感动了，就是为了要一个无毒的环境，当有的选择的时候，为什么我们不要选择更好的东西呢？没有钱只是一个借口，难道我们要救的只是有缘人吗？没缘的难道就让他慢性中毒吗？这一切都是因为化学物质的所在。所以，我真的很佩服槟城消费者学会，能出一本这么好的书，让我们知道我们日常用品到底什么是有毒的，若不是那么书，我不会那么的相信。

东西就算怎么好用还是环保，如果东西很贵，也没有什么用。可是，东西那么的便宜，难道真的用不过吗？我觉得值得，便宜好用环保无毒，能够救自己，也能够救地球，何乐而不为呢？就算是浪费，我也觉得应该把有毒的都丢了，浪费也是那么的一次而已，为了健康，难道就不值得吗？还是要等到生了病才去看医生呢？还是要趁我们还是健康的时候就改换呢？

我行动了，而你呢？救人救这个地球就是我们的使命，助人达成目标，共创美好未来。

朋友加油

朋友，平时的我都以为自己很坚强，可是看完了你写的东西后，你却是我看过最坚强的那个了，我彻底的输了。我看了你的故事，我哭了。我在想，一个人怎么能够承担这一些事情呢？是我的话，我应该崩溃了。朋友本来就是有难同当，有福同享的。我知道你会看得见我写的东西，我们是绝对不会看不起你，因为我们都是好朋友。

在生活上，我最不想见的东西是离婚，更不想做的东西是分手，如果要离婚，为什么还要结婚呢？恋爱就是要找到适合自己的，如果恋爱是为了分手，我宁愿不要恋爱。因为分手的感觉是很痛很痛。离婚最伤的不是两人，而是小孩。那，又何必呢？

你却一个人承担了。想回去的时候，你还可以笑着面对我们，我真的太佩服你了，你怎么能做得到的呢？为什么就不让我们跟你分担这一切呢？就算是我们不能做些什么事情，至少你可以诉苦啊，不用一个人难过哭泣。我觉得我不是一个很会当别人的好朋友，为什么我会察觉不到你的不快乐呢？做朋友做到那么失败的我，还算是一个好朋友吗？4年的朋友，不管怎么样或是发生了什么事情，你还是我的好朋友，不会改变的那一些。请你记得，朋友是不会因为身世而变质的。

当事情演变成这样的情况的时候，不会慰问你的我也不知道要如何是好，只能叫你别那么伤心难过了。有什么事情，就找我们聊聊吧。能帮的，能分担的，一定是义不容辞的。别一个人承受了，就别把我坏的都学完啊，因为我也是其中一个，可是我却没你那么强了，因为我不觉得我承受不到这样的事实。你真的很坚强，有你这样的朋友，我很荣幸，只要你不嫌弃我就好了。哈哈。。。

朋友，加油吧！你知道吗？你是最棒的！

Accident

Since the year which I was 17 years old, I had driven the car. However, this was my second time which the car behind bang me. This time is much more terrible compared to last time. The sound is a bit loud and my car was not stopped that time due to traffic jam. It is because I know that to stop the car is quite dangerous. The feeling just like what had happened suddenly. By that time, I really not sure whether want to stop my car to have a look or continue to drive the car.

After thinking for few second, I decided to stop the car. The car owner behind also stopped together as well and comes down to say sorry to us because is his fault. I was so angry that time, but I just do not know how to scold him and accept his apologized because my car just got a little of scar. However, this really a sad case because I just get my car for one month plus.

It is really a bad luck for me.

Cancer

Why there are so many people will get cancer nowadays? According to the research, there is one person out of four people will get cancer in Malaysia. In the year 2020, there is one person out of three people will get cancer. In the future, there is one person out of two people will get cancer in Malaysia. It is a very terrible figure in our life.

Most of the cancer is due to our environmental. Since World War 2, 100,000 types of chemical are created due to the world economic downturn. However, there are 20,000 types of chemical which contents something which not good for our health and even will affect us to get cancer easily in the long term when we consume it together with our daily products without our knowledge. It is because the 20,000 types of chemical are cheap and have a good effect when we used it.

It is really a sad case when our family or relatives who get cancer. I am really scared for using all those products which do not prove by any scientist that the products are safety to use. It is the reason for me to change a brand to use safety products, which are chemical free. I scare to die and suffer from the cancer attack. Sometimes we not manage to change the result, but we can avoid it with our ability. It is really thanking god who recommended these daily necessity products to me. I hope I can tell everyone about the good news of the products which can save us and the world as well.

Wedding Dinner

This is my first time which my friend invited me to her wedding dinner. I was so happy for it and plan to go immediately. Unfortunately, it crashed with my events which I think I want to go. I can only wish her deeply from my heart.

She is my friend in primary school. I had lost contact with her after I move the house during my secondary school. We did not contact each other for 10 years. With the technology (Facebook), we find back each other. I am really appreciating for the invitation from my friend.

Hereafter onwards, I believe that I will have many friends to get married. It is reached the time if we want to get married earlier. For me, I think that it really very early because all of us still in the range age of 22 to 23. However, I should congratulate to my friend who found her true love in her life.

Here, I wish my friend to have a memorable wedding. I apologize due to my absentee.

环境荷尔蒙

环境荷尔蒙并非特定的物质，正式的名称是『内分泌干扰物』（Endocrine Disrupting Chemicals，EDCs），指的是排放在环境里的化学物质，经人类或动物吸收到体内后，会产生于荷尔蒙相同的作用，对原有的荷尔蒙产生影响。

环境荷尔蒙在进入体内后会影响荷尔蒙的分泌作用，威胁身体的调节功能，身份可怕。在环境荷尔蒙中，焚烧垃圾是产生的戴奥辛，以及塑胶制品中含有的酚甲烷，会产生和女性荷尔蒙相同的作用。由于这些物质的作用与性荷尔蒙相同，一般认为可能引发生殖功能障碍。据说子宫内膜症的低龄化，以及男性精子数量减少等症状，与环境荷尔蒙也脱不了关系。学界甚至怀疑，死产、早产等生产事故，以及畸形儿和脑障碍儿童增加，也可能是环境荷尔蒙引起。

以上的两段都是我从一本书里面看到的，如果有一天我们的孩子在妈妈肚子里面看到的时候是男的，可是生出来的时候变成了女生，千万别害怕，因为这一些都是环境荷尔蒙所避免的。环境改变成女性化的男生，一切都是环境荷尔蒙。可是身为女生的我们别开心得那么早，因为当女生吸收了太多的环境荷尔蒙，原本女生的母乳是最好的排泄这些环境荷尔蒙，但我们却把它排去了孩子的肚子。排不出来的环境荷尔蒙，就是我们常听到别人说的癌症了。那时候才来后悔，已经是来不及了。

那我们还要等什么？做出正确的改变才是对的。我改变了，而你呢？改换使用安全、无毒、环保、健康及天然的日常用品才是正确的。

可怕的事实

自从我知道了这一个事实，我不敢再用市场上的民生用品了。虽然我还年轻，可是我害怕因为环境所造成的慢性疾病。这一些当我们洗头、洗澡、刷牙、洗衣、洗碗时，不仅正在慢性中毒，且在污染水源伤害大地。我们可爱的地球原来就给我们在这个时刻伤害了，往往最大的伤害却来自地球上每一家的我们。

汽车可能不是每一个人每一天都在用，可是我们的民生用品却是每天每一个人都必须用的。这些民生用品却导致我们每一天无时无刻都在吸收环境荷尔蒙。当环境荷尔蒙（内分泌化学干扰物质）进入我们体内，它将会影响正常荷尔蒙技能运作，这样我们正常的荷尔蒙功能失调（即内分泌失调），人体就会出现各种疾病。

环境疾病包括癌症、心脏病、高血压、糖尿病、不孕症、先天缺陷、学习迟缓、过动儿、沮伤、焦虑、忧郁症、慢性疾病、记忆力减退、老人痴呆、巴金森症、风湿关节炎、气喘、过敏、湿疹、头痛等等。如果我们有以上三种疾病的话，就有点可怕了。如果没有的话，我们就应该珍惜现在的我们，不再让我们的民生用品谋杀我们和我们可爱的地球。

如果我们能避免这一切的发生，你们会尝试吗？

A report

This is my first time received a report which I feel happy. It consists of 6 pieces of paper and some calculation. It does not show much because I am the consumer of the company. I like the products because it is safe, healthy, no toxics, and environmental friendly. We need to protect our earth with whatever, we can, unless those things which we cannot change it.

It is a sad case when we see of many of our friends or neighbor suffers from cancer. Although our daily necessity is one of the reasons, it stills a very high risk for us in the long term. I am scared when I know the reality from a book. Therefore, I decided to change it. I started for few months and how about yours?

I am happy because I can share it to others, and they believe it, but this is just the first step of it. I hope I can work hard for it to let many people know about this. Thanks to Melaleuca to give me this opportunity to save the earth. It is the only things which we can do if we not the scientist.

选择

选择越多的时候，总是会让人无从选择，不知道该做出什么样的选择。而我呢？只有逃避，不要让自己有其他的选择，什么都不想，做出了选择就不要再犹豫了，也不要想那些会让自己后悔的事情。有再多的选择又有何用呢？也可能到头来也不知道哪一个才是最好的。

选择让人迷失方向，迷失了自己，人越大就需要做很多不同的选择，选择错了就要自己懂得怎么承担，怎么去面对错的选择。什么东西都需要自己的选择，可是或许我最讨厌的就是做选择，选择越多就真的不知道要怎么选，很有可能到最后什么都选不到，只有悲剧收场。

于其羡慕别人，不如先做好自己要做的东西。或许是因为我害怕，怕做错了决定，所以只有逃避让自己觉得这样的决定是最好的。没有错的开始，只有对的结束，所以怎么样的决定都是对的。是自欺欺人，还是自我安慰呢？这样的阿Q精神，凡是就是要往好的方面想啊，什么样的决定都是最好的决定，什么样的选择都是最好的选择。这样的想法才是最正确的哦。

My birthday

In my memory, I had been celebrated my birthday with friends for many years. I think should be more than 10 years. However, this is the first time celebrated my birthday without any friends after so many years. For so many years, the maximum of the celebration is 3 to 4 different gang of the friends in a year. I am very happy for that, although there are different people in different of stage of our life.

During our young time, we like to give present to others although no celebration even we did not meet each other. When we grow up, we will share a present with many people to give to the birthday gal or guy. After sometimes, we all become lazy to post the present, unless is a very good friend.

When the technology becomes more advance, we used to send sms to others to wish them happy birthday. When the internet becomes Commons, most of us change the way to wish the person happy birthday in Facebook. It is the reason why I can hear the happy birthday wish from the most was personally, to sms until MSN to now be Facebook wish. Technology will make us lazy included me. It may be the reason I can get 235 people who wish me in my Facebook and less 10 people from sms. It seemed to be another record for me. Haha….

However, I am still happy for it because better than nothing. Thanks for everyone who wish me a happy birthday. Although I had no celebration with my friends, I had also boil porridge with my friends for more than 4 hours in total for free (Maxis holder only). I now only realized I actually can talk in the phone for so long time with loud speaker because I cannot stand for the heat of the phone. Unfortunately, I suddenly forgot who I should call for although it is free of charge. Thanks for my friends who talk with during my birthday.

First time of the Lollipop

It is really my first time get a Lollipop for my birthday present from my friend. It was so surprised because I never think about Lollipop as I not really like to eat sweet. However, I feel very happy because of the heart. The Lollipop can be a decoration in the house already, and I hope the ants will not attack it.

For the wish this year, I think the most is the answer which everyone likes to ask. For what question which people like to ask, I think most of the people also will know about it because some actually asked me for few years, and I still give them the same answer. Sometimes, I really feel disappointed but sometimes quite happy for that because of the freedom.

One of the things which my friend told me that is quite true. We need to find with the aim, but not search it blindly without any expectation.